I feel like I have so much shit held in and I need to vent. But damn.. like I don’t even know how to start, just everything built up overtime. Can’t even remember when I started to feel like this.
It’s like I’m just left here because I don’t even know what to do with all this, so I just feel. I feel everything and it’s like I’m constantly about to break down every time, I don’t, but if you ever see me you can tell that I’m close to.
By now, I’m just use to it.
I got so use to not opening up to anyone to the point that I begin to distant myself from the ones closest to me when I need it most.
Fuck you and everything you’re about.
Okay, time to rant.
Ugh, it makes me soo mad when people use the excuse that they’re drunk to hide the fact that they did something wrong or to change the story up so they wouldn’t be at fault. Let’s be honest, unless you’ve passed out/fallen asleep or you’ve taken some other sort of drug along with alcohol, we all know that you will always remember what you’ve done when you were drunk. Even if it’s unclear, if it’s significant enough to the degree that it could ruin your relationship with your boyfriend/girlfriend then you will ALWAYS remember what has happened the next morning. No excuses or exceptions. So for all those people that has ever lied or changed up the story of something that has happened when you were drunk just to save your relationship, you deserve a big slap in the face. You don’t deserve to be in a relationship.
I’ll take anything except disappointment.
I give up.
I dare you to try and find someone who can replace what I gave to you.
The philosophy of Atheism represents a concept of life without any metaphysical Beyond or Divine Regulator. It is the concept of an actual, real world with its liberating, expanding and beautifying possibilities, as against an unreal world, which, with its spirits, oracles, and mean contentment has kept humanity in helpless degradation.Emma Goldman
I guess that’s the biggest thing about me, I put myself up to think I’m stronger than I actually am. I never really figured out why I always held shit in, until now. It wasn’t because I was scared of saying something, I just always had that pride in me to believe that I’m strong enough to deal with everything myself and that I could take any kind of pain and handle it myself. As though I never needed anyone else to talk to because I could hold my own. Don’t get me wrong though, because I will bring it up if it’s necessary and it would help, but most of the time it won’t. And to be honest, more than half the time I’m completely fine with that, the fact that I keep everything to myself because I like it better this way anyway, but it’s just nice to let go of all that stress that builds up in me after a while. I honestly do believe that 99% of the time I am strong enough to keep this up, and that’s the biggest thing about me, my pride that I can withstand almost anything, which can also be the worst thing about me.
But whatever, I ain’t afraid to admit it; I put myself up to think I’m stronger than I actually am.
I want to think back and know that how I felt then is how I how I feel now. No over analysing, self doubting or realising something after it has happened, I don’t want to realise anything afterwards. Because if I were to ever think back, I would want to just know that it was you all along.
And that’s what makes you so different. It’s not what we’ve done or where we’ve been or what we’ve gone through. It’s how you make me feel. It’s how we are with each other. It’s every little thing that I feel when I’m next to you. Not to sound cheesy or anything but it’s true.
And just so you know I don’t think I’ve ever taken for granted a minute we’ve spent together. I love the way you hold my hand or get me mad/annoyed at stupid shit or when we’re laying next to each other and I could feel you so close to me that every time you breathe I feel your chest pressing and relaxing against my skin. And I’m not even being creepy by noticing these things, but I’ve been through enough to realize that I can’t take simple moments like these for granted anymore. Because it’s not where we go or what we do, but it’s how close I feel with you in that moment that really gets me.
And I’m not even saying this because it’s typical, or cliche in a sense, but because this is what I’m actually thinking while we’re together. How I always take that extra second just to grasp how I feel in the moment and appreciate everything, while it’s happening. Because I don’t wanna think back if/when we’re broken up and I would feel as though I never wanted a certain memory to end because of the fact that I didn’t cherish that moment enough than I should have at the time. I don’t want to ever recollect a memory of us and feel regret because I didn’t appreciate it enough at that time. Every time I reminisce I want think back and know that everything was exactly how it should be.
51560.) You’re everything that I want and more.
Needed this to be on my blog twice because he really is..
“I’m really scared for my generation, you know. The thing that scares me most is Tumblr. I hate what Tumblr has become. ” — Drake
Exactly what was on my mind.
Oh shut up already. With the “I don’t have trust issues, people just don’t prove they’re trustworthy.” How about you just stfu and accept the fact that you do have trust issues instead of making these stupid ass excuses for yourself.
Stupid ass bitches on tumblr think they’re clever making up these dumb phrases.